- you wont get better until you get worse -

to think that the littlest things could make it or break it. why is that? why do people need other people in their lives to make them happy? i always wondered this. i see it a lot. i never understood it though. i myself cant just point the finger at someone because we all do it. humans are strange. they are dependent on others. no matter how much one will say they aren't they are. its just human nature. just like your pet is dependent on you to feed them walk them play with them love them. it just is how it is. the other thing i don't get is how selfish and childish some people act when it comes down to it. it seems as if they are not like this sort of person but when push comes to shove they shut down and want to hide under the covers. so much for thinking you know someone when honestly you knew nothing about them from the start and you wasted too much time trying to understand.

im glad i have been over it for months now. it ended before i even ended it. strange. concept yes. but ahh life again. always something to question. right? because if we didn't question life then what kind of human being would i be eh?

i say ... if people want to act like they are 5 and run run far far away from problems they face in life instead of dealing with them right then and there then so be it. however, if people want to take that problem solve it and move on im sure in the long run this would be helpful. i know in my past i always had this thing with running because then the problem would go away right? WRONG. one thing i regret. up and leaving with a weeks notice and moving to westchester. however best outcome- it was a great experience and made me go back to school because i realized this world is shit when it comes to retail land, so i had to go back to become something i wanted to do . something ill enjoy for a while. teaching. yes ahh yes. so here i am. after finishing my undergrad a year ago. back in school. its interesting. and awesome. and stressful. and i love and hate every minute of it. im glad that i have awesome friends to hang out with and am able to forget about it when we go out and about to paint the town red.