This still hits home.

 

There’s a difference between somebody who wants you and somebody who would do anything to keep you.

 

Remember that.

 

FYI

 I don’t chase people anymore. I learned that I’m here, and I’m important. I’m not going to run after people to prove that I matter. 

Almost there

 One day you’re going to fall so in love with life that you won’t remember what falling apart over him felt like & it’s going to be so fucking beautiful. Just wait. 

Don’t waste your youth away on boys who do not care.

 

No one’s been honest with you and that’s why you’re scared.

You won’t let him all the way go. you’re leaving the door cracked for him to come back in. You won’t shut him all the way out for the fear of there still being a small chance. 
You don’t want to ruin that small chance.

And this is because all you’ve ever been told is “he’ll come back” or “he’ll realize what he had” or “give it time”

Poor girl, no one has been honest with you but here I am and that’s what I’m going to do.

Delete his number. You’re not using it. You shouldn’t be, anyway. Don’t talk to him because there’s nothing to be severed from empty conversation and you’ll look foolish when he doesn’t reply.

Delete his pictures. From your phone, anyway. You don’t need them. You just get sad when you look at them, and it’s okay. But you can choose happiness. So print them out and put them in a box in your closet and delete them. Choose happiness.

Don’t think about him. Don’t cry about him. When you see something that breaks your heart, curse his name and take a breath and carry on. Do you honestly think he ever spends more than a minute with your name on his mind? Now why should you be so upset over him?

Don’t wait. Kiss that other damn boy that wants to kiss you. Don’t leave that door cracked. Slam it. If he wants you he’ll work to get it back open. If he doesn’t want you enough in the end to try, fucking lock it.

Don’t expect the best, either. There are chances he thinks about you and will miss you. But there are also chances he doesn’t miss you and never will. Chances are he’s simply out of love, or moved on. Chances are it’s over. 
Don’t waste your youth away on boys who do not care.

 

You're still outnumbered

So, how do you beat the odds when it’s one against a billion? You’re just outnumbered. You stand strong, keep pushing yourself against all rational limits, and never give up. But the truth of the matter is despite how hard you try and fight to stay in control, when it’s all said and done, sometimes you’re just outnumbered.

Healing

We’ve all done things we weren’t proud of. I understand that. I know nobody’s perfect, but how do you live with it? How do you get up every morning knowing you could have done better, that you should have done better? Is being sorry enough? Can an apology actually heal our wounds? Ease our pain? Can it undo the hurt that we’ve caused?

Memo 2222

Looking back, it's easy to see when a mistake has been made... to regret a choice that seemed like a decent idea at the time, but if we used our best judgment and listened to our hearts, we are more likely to see that we chose wisely and avoided the deepest most pain regret of them all - the regret from letting something amazing pass you by.

Memo 542

If you aren't willing to keep looking for light in the darkest of places without stopping even when it seems impossible, you will never succeed.

Sweet summer

 In the midst of hate, I found there was, within me, an invincible love.
In the midst of tears, I found there was, within me, an invincible smile.
In the midst of chaos, I found there was, within me, an invincible calm. 
I realized, through it all, that 
In the middle of winter, I finally found that within me there lies an invincible summer.

Memo 75

    The world is a cruel place, nourished by and satisfied with appearances, rarely concerned about what lies beneath the surface. This is why it’s up to each of us to keep any fairy tale anchored to real life, so that we never forget who we are, where we come from.  

Dear you

 I am fucking gold but you prefer silver and that’s ok. 

There is no other way

 You just do it. You force yourself to get up. You force yourself to put one foot before the other, and God damn it, you refuse to let it get to you. You fight. You cry. You curse. Then you go about the business of living. That’s how I’ve done it. There’s no other way. 

Closeness

 I read once that the ancient Egyptians had fifty words for sand & the Eskimos had a hundred words for snow. I wish I had a thousand words for love, but all that comes to mind is the way you move against me while you sleep & there are no words for that. 

Or

 

you didn’t love her.

you just didn’t want to be alone.

or maybe, she was just good for your ego.

or, or maybe she just made you feel better about your miserable life.

but you didn’t love her,

because you don’t destroy people you love.

 

Memo. 90

 One of the hardest decisions you’ll ever face in life is choosing whether to walk away or try harder. 

We only have ourselves

 I am too intelligent and too resourceful for anyone to be able to take charge of me entirely. No one knows me or loves me completely. I have only myself. 

Pretty please

 

You were taught at a young age that “please” was the magic word if you wanted something.

Please stay.
Please don’t go.
Please don’t leave me.
And please come back.

But you never believed in magic, did you?

 

Memo 435

You know you really love someone, when you don’t hate them for breaking your heart. 

Memo 643

 I’m homesick for arms that don’t want to hold me.