well you said it was suicide

time and space. space and time.

makes you realize that maybe you're better off alone. it makes you realize that what you had wasn't happiness. it makes you realize that this should of never even got this far. maybe friends would have been the best out come of the first meeting rather then jumping in and sinking from day one.  thats not love. thats confusion. 

i realize i am happy. doing what i do best. being me. and laughing and smiling and that i am okay. and i dont need to change because there will be someone out there who accepts me for me.  thats what the world is about accepting one for themselves, not attempting to make someone they arent.  yes you can better a person but are you really making them better by saying you need to do this different you need to change. you arent right. maybe im just a rotten egg all around for you. but for someone else i am the cherry on top of the sundae im the icing that makes the cake. but then and again. maybe putting someone down could be your best feature. 

i however, cant stick around for it. the movie has ended. it ended not with a fairy tale ending but hopefully with a friendship that will last for a lifetime.  im not good at all or nothing. i used to be but im not anymore. 

i guess sometimes people up and run away. but here i am. in  control knowing what i want. and i have it. i can say i am finally happy and that i am okay with it.  i am finally in acceptance with the fact that it wasnt a good idea. 

this thursday is thirsty thursday and my birthday. i cant wait to spend it with the amazing people i call my friends! acoustic sing alongs. drinks. smiles. laughs. and even cake! oh boy im soo stoked! 

my life. over and over again. i love it. currently.