A letter to self

Dear me-

You deserve the best for you and your son. Just keep doing what your doing and being a great mom and don't worry about the other stuff. People will come in and out of your life but those that want to be in it will. Don't chase anyone and don't wait around for anyone. Love with a  big heart and remember that little boy loves you and looks up to you. Set the bar high and succeed with what you set your mind to. 

Xoxo

Me

Ps here are some things to try more in 2016

1. Love yourself more than you already do.

2. You are beautiful 

3. Smile more

4. Laugh harder

5. Take more adventures with Owen 

6. The sky's the limit 

Dear you

The not so feelings

 i wake up in the morning hoping that maybe something’s happened while i was asleep, that maybe i’ve moved on, i’ve let go. i go to sleep at night knowing i’ve spent another day being stuck, missing you and being stubborn. i go to sleep hoping that tomorrow i will awake with a brand new consciousness. i go to sleep hoping i will never miss you this way again - never this hungry, never this desperate. i go to sleep afraid to dream. 

3:45

i don’t want to be

your wilderness,

your experiment,

your fuck-you to your parents.

i don’t want to be the wild thing

you become,

or conquer. 

i don’t want to be a journey

you one day remember surviving.

baby - 

some people get lost in the wilderness,

and some don’t survive their experiments,

some start their journeys and never come back.

i could be the thing that breaks you,

instead of the girl that makes you.