im like a paper cup with a pin prick you can fill me up but ill only stay full for awhile

so months have gone by and i have wrote nothing.

i think way too much still.

i want the world ... but the world doesnt want me sometimes.

grad school starts in august and i have to take fewer classes which makes me total bummed due to the fact that i have to live and a full time job is something i need in order to do that.

its bizarre to me how sometimes people will get handed things and they take it for granted.

if someone would just pay all my bills for the next 2 years so i can focus on grad school that would be very swell.

and by swell i mean will never happen in a million years. 

speaking of bizarre things . . .  seeing a shooting star for the first time ever is pretty much the coolest thing ever.. oh along with long long bike rides to clear your mind.